So. As you guys may or may not have noticed, I've not been posting over at the Home so much lately. Well that's because I'm involved in a Christmas musical the youth in my church is having. One important thing to note is, that I'm the ONLY person involved in this musical in any way whatsoever that is not from any one of the graduate Rally teams (my church has been having Youth Rallies every year since 2005 and each year there's a different organizing team). So with my being involved in this I have slightly mixed feelings. For one, it IS slightly an honour to be asked. But on the other hand, the teams have a reputation for being "exclusive" and they tend to keep to themselves. It's almost like being on any one of the Youth Rally teams makes them part of some elite club no one else is privvy to.

So anyway, whenever I go for practice, which is nearly every day (and therefore why I haven't been posting that much), I tend to feel left out quite a lot. Even in the collective "clique" of graduate members, there seem to be more inside cliques. Also, the organizers of this whole thing tend to play favourites. It's very obvious who the favourites are, seeing as there weren't even any auditions for the parts of the musical and they just gave the parts out. I'm not feeling sore about not having a part or anything, I don't act - I dance. But either way, I'm just saying. For the other not-so-good-at-acting-or-singing favourites, they gave them quite a few dances to be in. Even though some people are actually relatively quite bad at dancing. Yes, THIS I am sore about. I mean, there are just SOME things that some people cannot do, and others can! But still, they give it to.. Yeah.

Thankfully, I do have some friends there who try to include me in things. And the more awkward 08 team members. (: So, for the opening of our musical, which will be held during the youth Christmas party, they'll be performing their version of Stomp! as icebreakers or something, I guess. Today while they were practicing during break I went in to watch them for a while. Being an ex-percussionist from my school band (sob sob), I was sort of helping them. Emphasis on the sort of. Because of that, Alan, the guy put in charge of it (and one of my friends :D), asked me to join them, because there weren't enough people anyway. So I agreed. I mean, why not. I love playing percussion as much as I love dancing. But also because I'll be dancing in the later part of the night, I'd have to be in full makeup and costume, so Alan said he'll have to ask one of the organizers about it first.

When she came in to check on them/us, Alan asked if I could be in as well. Answer? NO. =.= Bugger. Her reasoning was that because they'd be performing it the next day as well for the church's annual charity dinner and it was only the Youth Ministry(bloody team members)'s slot and other people could not be involved. WTF. THANKS LA RIGHT. A few days before you were asking people to get involved with the thing because there's not enough people and when I wanna do it you say no, WHAT THE CRAP LA. Plus, half the time I bet you cant even remember my name. Is it so hard? I have the same name as your beloved freaking choreographer! Only with different spelling.

After that I just brushed it off and continued as if I didn't hear her (she didn't say it to me, she said it to Alan). Basically practice started again after that and I guess it was okay. And I'm off to practice again today, since it's past midnight here, on my birthday. Ah well.

Thankyou so much: Nick, Lyn, Alan, Evie, Patrick, Brandon, Ian and VanVan, for trying to make me feel included. And Brandon, for sending me home the past two days. ILY GUYS. Even though you cant read this. Lol.